A Star is born.
My Movie Review
I started writing this review without even getting to watch the complete movie, I’m that impatient. Got my laptop out and started typing straight up when Jack and Ally had their first merge of the song “Shallows”: that was a very magnificent moment in the movie for me, it got me starting this review, at least.
I know a good movie when I see one, and this really has nothing to do with my obsession for “Bradley Cooper” or because this somehow involves two Hollywood stars that are already famous in their respective fields; it has nothing to do with the logic of already expecting them as stars to do well because they are already doing well or because we expect them to do well in everything; no, this was nothing like that. The song they did together was an outstanding performance and Bradley pulled it off excellently for someone who wasn’t in the music industry, it goes on to show how great an actor he is. I kept listening to them sing together as I write this, everything about that moment called to me: The desire to do what you love, but you’re being held down by the fear lying dormant, that unnecessary fear that seem entirely necessary every time you think about it; telling you “you’re just not good enough” and the exceeding joy that follows when you actually go through and past the fear to do that which you love; the lyrics of the song, the ability to manipulate emotions as displayed in that moment, and the crowd cheering, all called to me. That was the exact point I knew this movie was going to break my heart, there was no doubt about it, I had to still myself from going to the end to check how the heartbreak was going to hit me: if it was going to be disappointing or blubbering.
The movie had a level of intensity I am familiar with- not because I’ve felt it firsthand or directly, but because it has been a long intense craving of mine, especially when it comes to love. I’ve always been the all or nothing kind of girl: I wouldn’t take anything less than the overtaking and absolute intermingling of hearts: a bonding and an attachment that is beyond words. I smiled in my heart when I watched Bradley who of course is “Jack” stand outside the bathroom door waiting for Ally to finish bathing so they could go out together, that was the sweetest thing ever, I also couldn’t help but note the resemblance in name with “Titanic’s Jack”, hopefully they’re not trying to say only guys with names like “Jack, and Romeo or Hamlet” are capable of love, because I do not believe that.
The movie has a lot to teach about gold and how it glitters- it is not just a glimpse into the life of entertainers. It’s an in-depth explanation about life and how twisted up one can be, if we allow life deal us the way it wants: as was seen in “Jack’s” case.
This was probably the heartbreak I was bracing for, it was like I knew he was going to die, he looked it- if there was anything like a look of death, he had it, he drank too much, loved too much, was just too fucking happy, you know. I’m probably one of those people who thinks that in the midst of an excess dosage of happiness lies a measurable amount of sadness, as was proven in this movie: It just kept getting sadder for me, not because there were no happy scenes, but because even in the face of the happy scenes, all I would do is smile a little sadder; they were on happiness’ fastest lane, it’s only fitting they encounter the harshest crash ever, and even when he proposed, I took that with a little cynicism, I didn’t believe it was going to last, it was too good to be true and finally, it wasn’t true.
I kept asking why he couldn’t stop, what happened to him, why did he have to continue drinking and getting high all the time, he had a good wife, a good career, his fans loved him, it’s almost like he’s got everything, why then did he feel like he’s got nothing, why wasn’t he just satisfied?
Then I realized something we all have to note “When the world loses touch of your ingenuity and decides to settle for anything beneath or mediocre, it’s up to you to pull yourself up and live on”.
I feel that was Jack’s major problem, he didn’t know how to get back on, how to continue existing without his previous relevance; you know, Eminem had something of such to say in his track “Walk on Water”, there has to be a point you get to and you just know it’s time to let go and move on, this stage and life that was once yours isn’t yours anymore, it’s only yours in the passing; its crueler if you allow the world tell you this before you tell it to yourself, which was what happened to Jack: he refused to tell himself the truth, or maybe he couldn’t handle it enough because he didn’t prepare himself accurately for such happening.
The movie ended up being a disgusting kind of sad for me: not disappointing but more than a little bit blubbering; don’t get me wrong, it’s a genius production, but it cut me down in ways I’m yet to dissect. While close to the end of it, I felt like throwing up, it opened a kind of pain I do not want to understand, it was sickening to note that happiness had an end. It was kind of them to not show the rigor details of how Jack had passed, they had instead slightly hinted on it – or maybe they did show it, I just wasn’t patient enough to put myself through that ache, I really didn’t think I would have been able to bear it, at least now I get to kid myself when I tell me he didn’t really died, he just went away so Ally would enjoy her fame, and when her fame finally runs over- because it will, then he’ll return, and even if they were both already old and grumpy, they’ll find the eternal happiness they both deserve, in each others arm. (Just let me have that solace at least).
This is a kind of movie I want to be angry at, but I do have the energy to be because I’m too busy being pitiful and almost failingly understanding. I cried like a baby, sniffing back mucus and wiping off droplets of tears that kept pouring out like falling snow. I’m always a big baby when I watch movies like this; I can’t hold back my emotions, it all comes gushing out, like a caged sea that’s finally been let lose.
Bradley cooper, Lady Gaga, you both made a masterpiece. Allow me believe Jack didn’t die please, it’ll save my innocent heart from totally shattering and that might just affect the way I see this world for the 5 minutes after I’m done with the movie, even if it’s just for 5 minutes, it will end up being a feeling I will remember and familiarize myself with for a very long time.
Things to Learn from this movie:
- Never give up on your dreams.
- If the right opportunity hasn’t presented itself, keep working on yourself.
- Nobody owes you anything.
- Take good care of your mental health.
Did I forget to mention that I think Lady Gaga looks a bit like Black Widow in this movie, they are both so pretty.
Make sure you go see the movie, then tell me what you think.